diary for my girl...

all i want to do is be with u... whenever or whatever i dont care... i just want to be with u... u r my belle of love u r the shining sun 4 me u makes my life brighter n makes it full of hope again... i just want u to be happy as butterfly flew away following their own wish... i hope u'll be happy 4 the rest of ur life... i wanna c u smile like the audion at the fun fair watching clown doing their jokes n i dont care if i have to be the clown at that show... i can be everything 4 u... anything u wish... i will try to do anything... it's just 4 u... but now i think it all over... u with somebody else that u love n leave me here without any hope... but don't u worry baby... i will always here watching ur happienss n will be waiting 4 u... i will keep on doing what i have to do and at the same time took care of u my love... i know it's all over now... i know... but please just give me a chance to just stay at this conner of ur life n watching u from a distance... please...please...please...

my love...

there r alot of girl in my life... but this one is really different... i,me,myself don't know y... i wish i know... i really hope i know... but i can't, i keep on trying but until now i still can't find the answer... this girl makes me crazy n feel down... she's a girl that belong in heaven... i don't know what to say... she's just the girl that i love... i can't tell her that i love her because i don't want our relation stop just because my feeling towards her... but... i can't stop thinking bout her... even she already have a boy friend, i still love her or whatever thing she have done i will still love her and i will wait for her.... for me... i just want to see her smile and live a happy life even if there's no character represent me in her life... i don't care... i just want her to be as happy as princess who can have everything and anything they want... when my logic have been trashing apart i wouldn't care just because i love her... i love her... i hope she will understand but i can't change the reality, and lie to my self... she had gone n left me behind with all my sadnest and complicated heart feeling... i keep on thinking... thinking... and i don't know... i don't really know what should i do now... i fuck up... i ruin everybody life... i don't know... fuck u... who ask u to read my blog... hell fucking go from my side... get the hell out of here.... shit... what is this...??